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Created on 2003-10-18 01:29:37 (#1398152), last updated 2004-08-24
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Basic Info| Name: | .jessica. |
|---|---|
| Birthdate: | 01-03 |
| Location: | Northridge, United States |
BioF.A.N
like violence, you have me, forever..and after.
are you listening? we write a thousand pages
they're torn and on the floor
headlights hammer the windows were locked behind these doors
and we are never leaving
this place is part of us and all these scenes
repeating.
are cold to the touch.
my hands seem to decieve me when im nervous or when im healthy
the scenerys all drawn they hang here from the walls dear
painting pictures bleeding colors
blanket the windows
sometimes it gets so hard to breathe..
yer eyes can see right thru me.
these fights with yer arms left beside
one thing and one more says goodnite
youve got the map come get to me
these knuckles break before they bleed.
tear out these veins that own my heart
this skin that wears yer lasting marks
ive built these walls come get to me
come get to me.
is this yer lesson
a slight discretion
the lines that keep you the lines that sweep you
lock the doors from the inside.
yer face is so contagious it wears annoncements
it leaves me breathless i wont forget this
i wont forget this.
sometimes it gets so hard to breathe
yer eyes see right thru me.
let the walls have their say..
theres no conversation
words with out remorse and this television
drowns the only source
wake from these dreams of you in my arms
to the staircase where you hold my heart
this place
these walls
mean everything to me.
_____________________________________
one in three yer here
to tell me we cant do this anymore
three for three i will disagree
anymore.
yer hair and face against the mirror
as i take the steps to save whats left of me.
someones left when its over
people steal from you
they take anything they choose.
its good to see you
i missed you last nite.
thats such a lovely color
it goes with yer eyes.
before we fall asleep
i just wanted to say.
this all seems so easy but theres choices to make.
cant decide then look at the faces
candlelight
were burning the pages
ask us why?
and hurting ourselves with this false start.
resign yerself to always be and we pretend as if it gets easier
without the one thing you need
but does it get easier?
debating words with know replys
when we have these mornings where we cant say goodbye.
i wantred to mean everything to you but this isnt right
you keep coming back disassembled and i keep losing this fight.
i wont answer.
dancing under starlight glow
no one in the city knows
confidence can take you when nerves try to shake you.
from going all the way.
its not that far.
its good to see you, i missed you last nite
thats such a lovely color, it goes with yer eyes.
before we fall asleep i just wanted to say
this all seems so easy but theres choices to make.
we watched the tide roll in with cold air and coffee cakes
holding our words at lips
stopping the sounds they make
we know the way to go
we know what steps to take
to be here.
these words with no replys
stopping we's and starting i's.
this need is killing me and taking me over.
i wanted to mean everything to you.
but this isnt right
you keep coming back disassembled and i
keep losing this fight.
_____________________________________
this place is a prison
and these people arent yer friends
inhaling thrills thru 20 dollar bills
and the tumblers are drained and then flooded..
again and again.
theres guards at the on ramps
armed to the teeth
and you may case the grounds to the cascades to pugent sounds
but you are not permitted to leave.
i know theres a big world out there like the one i saw on the screen
in my living room late last nite it was almost to bright to see
and i know that its not a party if it happens
every night
pretending theres glamour and candelaubra
when yer drinking by candlelight.
what does it take to get a drink in this place?
what does it take? how long must i wait?
_____________________________________
let me take awkward saw
and run it against yer thighs.
cut some flesh away
ill carry this piece of you with me
and if all i can say tonite is that i hate you
it would be alright.
we could see eachother sometime..
if i could somehow make you mine.
and if not ill take my spoons
and dig out yer blue eyes
swallow them down to my colon
they're gunna burn like hell tonite..
cuz yer beautiful..just not on the inside..
light comes from with in yer beaming eyes dont seem so bright..
heart is on the floor why dont you step on it?
when i think of all the things you've done.
boardwalks and breaking waves made our saturdays
id buy you lemonade right now if you were here
and id throw it in yer face and id listen to you crying.
remembering how i miss our nights under these ocean skies..
heart is on the floor why dont you step on it?
when i think of all the things you've done.
you and i are like when thunder and the ocean floor collide.
_____________________________________
two jumps in a week ill bet you think thats pretty clever, dont you boy?
riding along yer motorcycle
watching the ground beneath you drop.
youd kill yerself for recognition
kill yerself to never ever stop..
you broke another mirror yer turning into someting you are not.
dont leave me high, dont leave me dry,
dont leave me high, dont leave me dry...
drying up in conversation you will be the one who cannot talk.
all yer insides fall to pieces you just sit there wishing you could still make love..
they're the ones who'll hate you when you think youve got the world all sussed out..
they're the ones who'll spit at you, you will be the one screaming out..
dont leave me high, dont leave me dry,
dont leave me high, dont leave me dry...
its the best thing that youve ever had
the best thing that youve ever ever had..
its the best thing that youve ever had
the best thing you have had, has gone away.
_____________________________________
well lets go back to the middle of the day that starts it all
i cant begin to let you know just what im feeling.
and now these red ones make you fly
and the blue ones help you fall
and i think ill blow my brains against the ceiling.
and as the fragments of my skull begin to fall
fall on yer tongue like pixie dust just think happy thoughts
and well fly home, well fly home,
you and i, we'll fly home..
now honestly thats what i said to her
what i said to her.
think happy thoughts..
_____________________________________
she looks like the real thing
she tastes like the real thing..
my fake plastic love.
LIKE AN OPERA AT A DISCO; WHEN ALL YOU WANTED WAS A ROCK SHOW TONITE
ITS ME! JESSICA! okay im a fucking fag. <3
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.....and it only hurts when im cutting
so i cut to let the pain bleed away
like violence, you have me, forever..and after.
they're torn and on the floor
headlights hammer the windows were locked behind these doors
and we are never leaving
this place is part of us and all these scenes
repeating.
are cold to the touch.
my hands seem to decieve me when im nervous or when im healthy
the scenerys all drawn they hang here from the walls dear
painting pictures bleeding colors
blanket the windows
sometimes it gets so hard to breathe..
yer eyes can see right thru me.
these fights with yer arms left beside
one thing and one more says goodnite
youve got the map come get to me
these knuckles break before they bleed.
tear out these veins that own my heart
this skin that wears yer lasting marks
ive built these walls come get to me
come get to me.
is this yer lesson
a slight discretion
the lines that keep you the lines that sweep you
lock the doors from the inside.
yer face is so contagious it wears annoncements
it leaves me breathless i wont forget this
i wont forget this.
sometimes it gets so hard to breathe
yer eyes see right thru me.
let the walls have their say..
theres no conversation
words with out remorse and this television
drowns the only source
wake from these dreams of you in my arms
to the staircase where you hold my heart
this place
these walls
mean everything to me.
_____________________________________
one in three yer here
to tell me we cant do this anymore
three for three i will disagree
anymore.
yer hair and face against the mirror
as i take the steps to save whats left of me.
someones left when its over
people steal from you
they take anything they choose.
its good to see you
i missed you last nite.
thats such a lovely color
it goes with yer eyes.
before we fall asleep
i just wanted to say.
this all seems so easy but theres choices to make.
cant decide then look at the faces
candlelight
were burning the pages
ask us why?
and hurting ourselves with this false start.
resign yerself to always be and we pretend as if it gets easier
without the one thing you need
but does it get easier?
debating words with know replys
when we have these mornings where we cant say goodbye.
i wantred to mean everything to you but this isnt right
you keep coming back disassembled and i keep losing this fight.
i wont answer.
dancing under starlight glow
no one in the city knows
confidence can take you when nerves try to shake you.
from going all the way.
its not that far.
its good to see you, i missed you last nite
thats such a lovely color, it goes with yer eyes.
before we fall asleep i just wanted to say
this all seems so easy but theres choices to make.
we watched the tide roll in with cold air and coffee cakes
holding our words at lips
stopping the sounds they make
we know the way to go
we know what steps to take
to be here.
these words with no replys
stopping we's and starting i's.
this need is killing me and taking me over.
i wanted to mean everything to you.
but this isnt right
you keep coming back disassembled and i
keep losing this fight.
_____________________________________
this place is a prison
and these people arent yer friends
inhaling thrills thru 20 dollar bills
and the tumblers are drained and then flooded..
again and again.
theres guards at the on ramps
armed to the teeth
and you may case the grounds to the cascades to pugent sounds
but you are not permitted to leave.
i know theres a big world out there like the one i saw on the screen
in my living room late last nite it was almost to bright to see
and i know that its not a party if it happens
every night
pretending theres glamour and candelaubra
when yer drinking by candlelight.
what does it take to get a drink in this place?
what does it take? how long must i wait?
_____________________________________
let me take awkward saw
and run it against yer thighs.
cut some flesh away
ill carry this piece of you with me
and if all i can say tonite is that i hate you
it would be alright.
we could see eachother sometime..
if i could somehow make you mine.
and if not ill take my spoons
and dig out yer blue eyes
swallow them down to my colon
they're gunna burn like hell tonite..
cuz yer beautiful..just not on the inside..
light comes from with in yer beaming eyes dont seem so bright..
heart is on the floor why dont you step on it?
when i think of all the things you've done.
boardwalks and breaking waves made our saturdays
id buy you lemonade right now if you were here
and id throw it in yer face and id listen to you crying.
remembering how i miss our nights under these ocean skies..
heart is on the floor why dont you step on it?
when i think of all the things you've done.
you and i are like when thunder and the ocean floor collide.
_____________________________________
two jumps in a week ill bet you think thats pretty clever, dont you boy?
riding along yer motorcycle
watching the ground beneath you drop.
youd kill yerself for recognition
kill yerself to never ever stop..
you broke another mirror yer turning into someting you are not.
dont leave me high, dont leave me dry,
dont leave me high, dont leave me dry...
drying up in conversation you will be the one who cannot talk.
all yer insides fall to pieces you just sit there wishing you could still make love..
they're the ones who'll hate you when you think youve got the world all sussed out..
they're the ones who'll spit at you, you will be the one screaming out..
dont leave me high, dont leave me dry,
dont leave me high, dont leave me dry...
its the best thing that youve ever had
the best thing that youve ever ever had..
its the best thing that youve ever had
the best thing you have had, has gone away.
_____________________________________
well lets go back to the middle of the day that starts it all
i cant begin to let you know just what im feeling.
and now these red ones make you fly
and the blue ones help you fall
and i think ill blow my brains against the ceiling.
and as the fragments of my skull begin to fall
fall on yer tongue like pixie dust just think happy thoughts
and well fly home, well fly home,
you and i, we'll fly home..
now honestly thats what i said to her
what i said to her.
think happy thoughts..
_____________________________________
she looks like the real thing
she tastes like the real thing..
my fake plastic love.
LIKE AN OPERA AT A DISCO; WHEN ALL YOU WANTED WAS A ROCK SHOW TONITE
ITS ME! JESSICA! okay im a fucking fag. <3
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.....and it only hurts when im cutting
so i cut to let the pain bleed away
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